Fortune Cookie
1. Love Me Anyway It's not the sun that's setting It's just that you are spinning away From the way that you were sure to feel From the sense that always kept you real It's not a dream that's dying It's just a world that's opening up To a place you always feared to go With a longing, desperate need to know In the darkness I can hear you say That you always thought you'd love me anyway No matter what this life throws our way You say you always thought you'd love me anyway It's not the life you're living It's just the waiting to begin again And hope to see things new Where all your past won't follow you In a new incarnation, there's only joy for you to find Towards a new day rising, dreaming demons exorcised It's all gone It's not the sun that's setting It's just that you are spinning away again And hope to see things new Where all your past won't follow you
2. You Know I Need You There's only one thing that you need to know I need you with me wherever I go Wherever I go There's only one thing that I need to see To see you smiling next to me Next to me There's only one thing that I need to say I need your loving every day Every day Hey...you know I need you There's only one thing that I need to do Is dedicate my life to you I can be true There's only one thing that I need to hold Your loving arms around me truth be told Truth be told There's only one thing that I need to be The one who lifts you up and sets you free It could be me If love and bliss are limitless, then why would we deny them? Inner space and your hearts' grace are there for you to find them Without your trust I will go bust so don't give me your answer 'Cos I know that there's no other way for me to go 3. It's Getting Away From Me Whatever world may come, whatever time undoes Without a word to say, I loved you all the way So when you're looking back at the love you lacked Please know the honest truth is that I'm here for you, now It's getting away from me The vision that I know we could see While everything hangs in the balance Interpreting one another's silence And as the moonlight glows and the nighttime slows If you could dull the pain you know the dreams remain So if there's no way back from our love's setback Please know the honest truth; I don't know what to do, now Don't think about what has been Just think about how we could begin With a vow of an open heart And a love that was fated from the start 4. The Hook Moonlight on the bedsheets The way you looked away Now I don't think that you're gonna see me anymore And I don't know what we're gonna be Praying for redemption Hitting a brick wall As I try to stop the fall The hook was baited Now I'm isolated And what have I created When you dream of someone new Dreams fall all around us But you never shed a tear Now I don't think you're gonna receive me anymore And I don't know where I'm gonna be Nowhere to come back to Without a phone to call Can I somehow stop it all? The hook was baited Now I'm isolated And what have I created When you dream of someone new The hook was baited Now your heart is jaded And if our lives our fated Is this what we've been slated for? Though our love keeps falling down 5. Valley of Your Heart It was a long time coming But you finally told me how it feels To be left alone by no fault of your own Already half way down this road we're on I know I've strayed so far away From the place where you needed me to be And I don't know how I can come back now Into the sacred place of your heart Tell me there's a way back to the valley of your heart Even as these waves are breaking our love right apart I need you to know just how far I will go To heal the pain of your loneliness With a tiny thread of your love unshred Maybe that's where I can start again To see you feeling so alone So far away from the love that we had known It's always been that your heart is wild and free But now I know that your world is lost to me 6. The World Fictive We all have to live in a world where all you have is what you can give Like the moon chasing down the sea, I can always feel your presence pulling me And every time that I feel this way, remember it's all a dream, insane When I don't have anything more to give, remember this time Air or cold, hard ground You're the sum of blinding light and pounding sound And every time that I can't get through, I'll realize it's the world come true When I don't have anything more to give, remember this time And I can't outlive The world fictive My heart yearns for you and this hopeless disillusion of the truth And every time that I see the sky, remember that it's a dream on fire When I don't have anything more to feel, remember this time 7. Fortune Cookie Could someone help me find my way? As I slide down, as I'm driven underground This dizzy vision's more than I can take It's such a shame when all your dreams turn out the same Don't you take yourself away Don't steal your breath 'cos there won't be nothing left From the moonrise to the break of dawn Has it ever seemed so long? In a panic stricken sacrifice Pray your fortune's gonna turn out right I don't remember anything at all But dancing lights and starry visions in the night I need a chance to set things right Beyond the veil, just another chance to fail Don't believe the things I say tonight If I'm possessed then there's no meaning to be guessed 8. Moment of Peace (instrumental) 9. One and the Same Is there space around your heart? Any place for me to start To find my way back from the edge Where I've been staring down into nothing It's been too long that I've been hiding I'm too far gone; I just keep on sliding down The road slips underneath my wheels The sky melts into pools of grey and black The sun rises from my perspective And the daylight is leaving me alone It's been too long that I've been hiding I'm too far gone; I just keep on sliding down I'm on my way to God only knows where Don't feel alone 'cos you know we are one and the same Bouncing off the rocks Dig for a handhold Years collapsed into a single moment See the forward scene Hurtle towards me Measured in vertical miles 10. You Won't Be Owing Me It's all gone quiet, there's nothing more to do But sit right here and write a song for you The one who I love truly best of all Held up by my ankles Pound it with a hammer Stakes into the ground Sealing off this fortress So you know I won't be found Stare into the face of your betrayal This time there's no way that I can fail All the ghosts that haunt these empty streets Raise a toast in honor Pound it with a hammer Stakes into the ground Sealing off this fortress So you know I won't be found Although the sun shines brightly There's nothing more to see If you give your heart up then you won't be owing me 11. Landfall I know that you want to feel love Like it's pouring from the sky I know that you need to see love When you're looking in my eyes To think instead of feel Is the greatest curse of all Abstracted from what's real I can't even see the landfall Coming up against my limitations Hitting up against the wall inside You see me stop and stare Like there's nothing I can do I see you falling back Like someone's gonna save you To dream instead of love Like there's somewhere I could hide But you know what's on the inside Coming up against my limitations Hitting up against the wall No one has to know the implications When I can't even see the landfall They don't even know my name and Even though they look the same and If only this could be a real love But you know I'm thinking when you feel love 12. Something to Revolve Around Finally I've found something to revolve around Finally I'll see the love that was meant for me I've lost myself before; burned my eyes with sunshine The pedal's on the floor and I know where I'm going I know where I want to be Somewhere from my memory Where the trees are tall as towers And the air is charged with power Finally I've found that love is in forgiving And hope is all you have if you forget just why you're living I've lost myself before; burned my eyes with sunshine The pedal's on the floor and I know where I'm going I know where I want to be Somewhere from my memory Where the trees are tall as towers And the air is charged with power Finally I've found something to revolve around Finally I'll see the love that was meant for me
Start at the Beginning
1. Two Places at Once I'm here but I'm not really here The wind blows through me like a ghost All that I can think about Is where I want to be the most In between two worlds at once Falling through an endless void One side, the life we know The other, truth I can't avoid Two places at once, I'm falling between Two places at once When you see me standing near I might as well be gone Cos I can't even see your face Or hear the words of your song I don't have a blueprint I don't have a map I don't have a way to spring the trap It's worse than a heartbreak When it's only in your mind Drunk on imagination Leaves nothing to find And then comes the daybreak Same place, same time Light floods in memories That won't leave me behind
2. It Ain't Me Under a microscope, I can see myself now, disintegrating Under lock and key, can I free myself somehow by deviating It ain't me, it ain't me I'm not the one to set you free, no It ain't me, no What does it mean to be the picture of your expectations? There's no way I can explain, this wasn't preordained But we know the ending It ain't me, it ain't me I'm not the one to set you free, no I need to find myself lost, no matter what the cost 'Cos it ain't me, it ain't me, no Forget about the rules, I don't mean to be so cruel It's incomprehensible If I should disappear, fulfill my greatest fear Is it inescapable? It ain't me, it ain't me I'm not the one to set you free, no I need to find myself lost, no matter what the cost 'Cos it ain't me, it ain't me, no Buried under the snow, wherever love may go It ain't me, it ain't me, no Without a word to pretend, beginnings need an ending It ain't me, it ain't me, no
3. Start at the Beginning To fall in love is a beautiful thing No matter what, no matter what it brings The visions come in coursing streams Flying away, my chance to be redeemed I don't have to curse my name I don't have to go insane Dragging me down by my heart What could be is all I see The sun through the trees, it ain't reaching me What could wake me up or set me free When the wind on my face, it ain't touching me I don't have to curse my name I don't have to go insane Dragging me down by my heart Am I awake or still asleep Burning bright or six feet deep Dragging me down by my heart Where'd you go now I'm only here and I don't know how What does it mean to be Starting back at the beginning again
4. The Source of Love Everytime I wake up, it's the same The rain is pouring down all over me And when I think I'm burning through the clouds Storms are rolling up on the horizon In a silent morning The space for me to be reborn In a blinding rainstorm The space where everything is transformed Can my world stop spinning Can I find my way to the beginning 'Cos I know I'm missing The love that's at the core of my existence Everytime I'm flying down the highway I can feel the places left behind And when I think I've reached my destination How come I never feel like I arrive Pass through me / Renew me / Define me / Align me to the source of love 5. Out of My Reach Do you believe that I can sleep and I can't think straight And when I finally drift off, I see your face Like a wave that's crashed on me, and I'm upside down And I can't even remember how to turn around You're out of my reach, but even the reaching's wrong My heart is pulling me down I've come off the spinning wheel 'Cos when I see you there ain't nothing else to feel Do you believe that I can't see two feet in front of me Twisting me up 'cos what I want can never be It's like I'm out on the ocean, and there's no dry land I want you to pull me under, when you take my hand You're out of my reach I had everything I needed before I knew what I could see It's all I can imagine just to see where we could be You see through me 6. Creative Destruction Forest fires raging in my heart Everything I've built is torn apart And you know I'll never be the same As the picture hanging in the frame Creative destruction bringing new life from what there was Without hope there can't be any way to see what could be Black smoke engulfing all I see Wind whips the flames when you look at me No words can say what this means Regenerate this in memory Opening the canopy to let light in From this sea of ashes you'll begin Open up to every possibility From this smoking darkness you can see the sun 7. Love From the World Nobody told you not to keep it all inside And hold all your sadness against the world outside The things that are hurting you will never go away The only solution is to give up and away I know you never know I've seen that undertow Take you away I've seen those icicles stick through your heart They'll fade away You can't cling too tightly to the gifts you've been bestowed Cos if the world wants to, you know that it'll free, free 'em from your hold And the things that are always hurting you You know they'll never, ever go away The only solution is to give up and away I know you never know I've seen that undertow Take you away I've seen those icicles stick through your heart They'll fade away Give up your hopes and dreams Give up your everything Give them away I don't want anything I don't need anything Love from the world Love from the world When you can't find nothing left When you can't find nothing left 8. Hope Anchor Come up from the bottom, climb up on the chain Come up to the surface again and again And in the faraway distance, I see a glittering light And a wind that blows me away to a deep dark night No matter what I say, it all means the same I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't cling to you Then when the storm falls and the rain's coming down You know I saw it all coming, I couldn't turn it around I don't know how it got started, I don't know how this could be Now everything is in free fall, for what it means to me No matter what I say, it all means the same I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't cling to you And when the winds collide, you are my place to hide Out on the open sea maybe you can find me I can't see anything anymore I've lost my sightline to the shore You're my way back on to where I belong My waiting hope anchor 9. Pure Energy Never knowing is the answer Never needing is the cure Always beginning is our true state Always yielding to what's pure It's pure energy, your true heart It's pure energy, this new start In waves of red and gold I feel your soul fly through me In undulating light between the sky and sea In a fight for freedom that I need to win In a quest for victory over the state I'm in I'm going deeper than the surface waves To the ocean floor where no light escapes I don't need to remember where I've been I don't need to know anything When I feel your arms around me When I feel I'm pure energy 10. The Nothing Shines Through When I feel I'm falling And the water's rising up to meet me And there's no one I can talk to About the pain in life that's gonna defeat me Is there anyway to turn back And take another look at the landscape Before diving through a frozen lake Cos between my hands it's the world I make The nothing shines through The solid world just comes unglued And the life I try so hard to build Illusions that I can't fulfill Did you ever stop to wonder How things take on a shape of their own And everything we started By bringing life to the unknown Is there room left to maneuver Cos I feel like I've been cast in stone And I hope to God you're with me Cos I don't want to face it alone The nothing shines through The solid world just comes unglued And the life I try so hard to build Illusions that I can't fulfill The nothing shines through The distance between me and you Falling shy of all my dreams Is tearing me right at the seams In your arms is where I want to be When I see clearly you are all I see Wide open to the world Wide open to the world Wide open The nothing shines through 11. My Darling Ruin I want to do something I'll regret I want to go somewhere and try to forget One more straw to break my back One look away from a heart attack I don't know where I'm headed and I can't look up I don't know what I need, but it's all fucked up without you It's not what I expected to find The life that I'd perfected in my mind One more step from where I could be One more day slipping away from me I don't what I'm doing but I can't back up Everything I want to be is all fucked up without you Every day I want to believe I can start anew Every time I try to forget where you are My darling ruin 12. When You Were Born When you were born, I felt the world change Everything drew into range Now my life is changed forever And we are held together When you were born, I felt the world change Time stops, feeling life expand Light glows in interwoven strands I feel it overwhelming me Tapped in to the soul of eternity When you were born, I saw the sun rise Over secret worlds behind your eyes Although your words are voiceless I can feel their nearness When you were born, I saw the sun rise Out on the road that's before us I'm gonna seek out a place for us I feel like there's no boundary Tapped in to the soul of eternity Anywhere time's gonna find us These are the ties that will bind us And in the life that you build Will be my destiny fulfilled 13. You Can Only Feel Sometimes in the daylight I can see everything The tops of the trees, concentric rings Underneath the static I can feel the transformation Sometimes in the shadows I can't feel anything The void of the sky, the emptiness so full of life Underneath the tension I can feel my soul escaping You can only feel what you let yourself feel You can only see what you want to believe Sometimes in the starlight I can feel gravity The pull of distant planets is as heavy as the earth Underneath the motion is the stillness of creation It's a wide-eyed stare, it's the life you dare It's overstimulation It's the driving force, ultraviolet source It's solar radiation 14. What Holds Us Together What holds us together is the sideways rain No matter how much falls behind us we remain I've been too long in the world of the unreal Baby, I been sleeping at the wheel If love is a river that's flooding through me Then I don't know where it goes if it can't run free What holds us together are the wind-bowed trees Digging their roots into our souls' identities How can I tell you, tell you what it means To be always bursting at the seams What's holding us together In the sweat of a fever dream What's holding us together I been bursting at the seams
Washington State
1. Reset the Clock When I let go of the things I think I need I see them falling in the wind and rain When I awaken to the morning I'm in the grip of time again It's so easy to know what's coming It's so easy to hit fast forward And experience nothing real And experience only imagining Open up to the sun and the clouds Open up to the spinning world around When I'm closed down and I'm crowded out I've forgotten what my life's about When it goes down and I'm all alone I hear your voice it's calling me back home Reset the clock to morning Reset my chances again And the light that's coming through the clouds Is frozen in the wind and the rain I just want this all to mean something I just want to find a way to be real And not be spending days avoiding life Being afraid to know how I feel Everytime I feel like I've got nothing left Everything around me starts to feel compressed Time and space just swirl around me endlessly Without your love I'd never know where I should be Open up to the shattering sky As the red-tailed hawk begins to cry It's a promise that I need to make To find the center of the lake Where the water will renew me and the energy flows through me And the meaning in my life is to find the meaning in my life
2. In a Dream State In a dream state, you find that you can elevate In your mind's eye, there's visions of a see-through sky Moving closer to my true state Without a reason to investigate The energy I'm giving and receiving Illusions I'm believing You know I can't wait In my true state Pulled to elevate In a dream state When you capture that lucid thought Do you know where it came from? With our antennas up we are receiving When your waves are synchronized And you're living between the time With our hearts wide open We're who we really are Layers of ego and pride discarded Layers of memory laying divided Dream state, is it my true state? 3. Cloud Cover In the chaos of time that's strung together Without a pause to beat it back Somewhere there's a silent moment In my mind's whirl and my heart's attack Looking out at all that the world is The crush of cars, and roads and buildings Makes you want to fly away But you can't fly in the daytime And you can't hope to know your dreams As the present tense slips through the seams Awake under the cloud cover I'm standing in the misty rain As hills erupt in all directions I just want to see you again Wrapped around my heart Stolen away by a phantom fear I know that you are near me When everything I've known just disappeared Lingering over the hillside Like a blanket pulled up by the trees I can't think of anywhere else to be In the moment now, I can almost see you I can almost hear your voice And everything only you or I could remember Burning through the cloud cover Here comes the mighty sun To bathe us all in waves of hope for change To bring about what is to come When the dream ends and you're up with the sun again And the rain falls you can already see the future 4. Life Size Don't think so much, just do what you need to do Don't hurt so much about the things that you been through Don't care so much, these things don't define you Just raise on up and leave the pain all behind you You can stare up the steps You can step up the stairs You can dream about the distance Or move yourself to there Below the surface tension and behind your tired eyes The truth about existence is bigger than life sized Don't ask so much from the world that's outside you Don't look so much back to the trails behind you Don't burn so much, too many holes in the ceiling Just give on up to the flow of your feeling Just keep moving, don't you ever stop Just keep driving, through the tear drops The only thing you need to do is realize what you can do To keep rising, don't you ever stop 5. Through the Chain Reaction If anything should happen to me, I want you to know this I've always loved you, all this time it's been true And every time I think of you And all the crazy things we've been through I smile and I wish that we would live forever Take me with you through the chain reaction The other side of the event horizon If I should disappear tomorrow, I hope I might exist somewhere And maybe we can be together, vanished into air I'm still dreaming of the lifetimes we'll never get to know C'mon darling take me with you, wherever you should go Nobody knows where the time goes Nobody knows where the light flows Nobody's waiting with an answer The beginning and ending of our nature 6. Sandcast Darkness falls around you and you can't see where you are And the swirling winds surround you There's a shadow in your heart No one's making any difference No one's there to hear you call It doesn't matter what the reason is You're past the edge you know you'll fall It's the time for your revival It's the time to hold your ground It's the key to your survival To hold tight to the peace you've found Hearing are the echoes laughing in the faded past You're left dreaming of the yesterdays you always hoped would last Your aching heart can't bear to beat Can't see no light, can't feel no heat There's no other way There's no other way Cast your hopes and dreams into a grain of sand Soaking in the sunlight on the beach The tide comes in, the waves are crashing down They'll pull you in their wake And all the dreams you make will find momentum now When you surrender to the world somehow There can always be a moment To decide you're gonna stop And realize that you're living In the world of what is not 7. No Division Last night I met my future self He was strong and sure and confident He said everything we've ever done Has brought us here to this place Last night I saw myself from years ago Trying to make sense of the worlds we know I said what you see as time is just dazzling your eyes You will see that everything is fine In the night there's no division Just reality in full No more scattered fragments Just the universal pull to elevate Last night I saw that I exist outside of time The presence that is underneath the surface noise And I don't have to worry so much Just take it on the rise and just keep rising 8. Levitate When you don't know what to do and no one's getting through And the sunlight isn't warm anymore When there's nothing left to give and you don't know how to live And your dreamtime isn't safe anymore Can you listen to what's inside of you And not keep thinking about the future And in the silence, do you hear cacophany Or feel the touch of the biggest mystery What you don't resist is the world that persists And your vision's getting clearer now When you don't expect to gain and you're in the breaking rain The truth is falling all around you now Everything you need is in your heart Everything the world has torn apart Everything you ever want to be is laying down below the things you see 9. Reach Up Reach up and grab the sky hovering so low overhead Or am I up, up so high instead Covering me Hovering over me It's darkening It's broadening Don't believe this, know how Don't repeat this anyhow The sky opens up so much wider than anything I've ever seen before Reach up and shout down the sky the only place that I can't go And all the things that I can never know Calling to me Spinning around me It's brightening The early morning Flying out, I'm so much farther than anywhere I've ever been before 10. A Chance for Me to Stay You won't believe me when I tell you How hard it's been to say And the speed that the world keeps spinning Is increasing everyday Every time I remember how it used to feel I can feel the distance in the time It seems remote to me, the sun's absorbed my energy I don't think that I used to see that way Dreamtime, wide awake, I am the sum of the risks I take It's all the way down, where I have to go Meantime it's the world I make, when I don't hesitate I think there's a chance for me to stay Looking out at the world through a windshield I can feel it turn to motion blur Everything's slowing down before me And I think there's a chance for me this way I can turn away from the life that I've known And find a way to embrace the unknown As every moment reveals itself to me All I want is to feel your energy Beyond the threshold Beyond a point in time Beyond that one decision Is the dividing line